happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
:D
well im already 18 years old now
:)
and everything looks soooooo damn amazing in m birthday
thanks to my gudboy
thanks to all my friends
thanks to all my relatives
thanks to my lovely parents
thanks to GOD
I LOVE U :)
HELL-O OCTOBER
hello october
welcome october
well..i wanna say teribbly sorry coz i ddint post anything during september.
I was damn busy -now actually still busy-
so manythings happened in september.
ramadhan month and eid mubarak.
and the other most important thing is 'september 24th 2010'
:) should i tell u what was happening in that day?
hehe
why i said hell-o october?
i was born at october..
but i don know why i hate october..
i start hating that month about 3 years ago
so many bad things were happening in october, even in october 18th, the day that i must hve been cheerfull..but..oh god :(
hell-o october
please dont make me afraid like a monster
i dont wanna be victim of october
full of cry, less of happiness, tiring october
but those all are just my past october
welcome october
give ur cutest smile ever
so i can stop saying hell-o october
welcome october
well..i wanna say teribbly sorry coz i ddint post anything during september.
I was damn busy -now actually still busy-
so manythings happened in september.
ramadhan month and eid mubarak.
and the other most important thing is 'september 24th 2010'
:) should i tell u what was happening in that day?
hehe
why i said hell-o october?
i was born at october..
but i don know why i hate october..
i start hating that month about 3 years ago
so many bad things were happening in october, even in october 18th, the day that i must hve been cheerfull..but..oh god :(
hell-o october
please dont make me afraid like a monster
i dont wanna be victim of october
full of cry, less of happiness, tiring october
but those all are just my past october
welcome october
give ur cutest smile ever
so i can stop saying hell-o october
My Indonesia
I wanna talk about the place i live
My lovely country..
INDONESIA
The biggest archipelago country, consists of thousands island in equator..
Thats the country i live, i grow up..
What do you think about indonesia?
Its still young country..65 in age (older then mine exactly LOL)
My classmate in high school ever told me, when she was in USA for student exchange (1 year program) she introduced herself to stranger, and that stranger asked, “Indonesia? Whats that? is there a country named Indonesia?” oh gosh *crying* so lets think positive..maybe the stranger never attended geography class.. haha.
And my friend also told me about what people asked (so weird questions) curiously, when she was telling about Indonesia. Those weird questions are:
Is there any car in ur country?
Can u use internet?
Do u use mobile phone? Etc etc..
*laughing*
Hey guys, lets visit Indonesia and u will know the answer. LOL. I still cant understand whats on their mind..
I think every country in this planet has their own weakness and goodness. Does indonesia. Every nation, every country is unique. Maybe i dont deserve to talk this coz i never go abroad. Hehe. But internet really makes have wide sight about this world and the difference among every country. And im always curious about another countries, about their customs, their people’s characteristics.. Im not racist, im sure. I think racism is too old to live today. But okay, everyone has their own point of view about races. Once i got on omegle, mostly strangers would be disconnected if i said ‘im from indonesia’ or ‘im an asian’ LOL. Once i ever got msgs from someone, before he/ she dsconnected.. “oh u are from east earth hemisphere, where internet connection is walking slowly like a snail” -__- bzzz. So what huh? Well okay okay whatever they thought. In fact the internet connection is really really damn. Makes me upset. Haha.
Ermm..i consider this country is moving forward so fast..too fast. But still cant leave the traditional side, a side that indonesians call it as eastern customs. Hehe. Am i talking too much?
I love this country..islands country..place in equator..tropical country.. but the tempreature is not too high or too low, coz the sea gives humidity in the air, the temperature can be stable, cool, and almost the same through the year.. i never see snow in indonesia, coz there’s no winter..no 4 seasons. This country just has 2 seasons, rainy and sunny. The lucky one is i live in awesome city..malang city. Not too big city in java island. I feel so comfort live here. Malang is famous coz its cool air, apple, flowers, and the education. Many universities and colleges in this city. Maybe the lifestyles is still under jakarta..but its no need high cost to live in malang. Haha.
Hey u guys..this is my country ! I wanna show to ppl around this planet THIS IS INDONESIA, my country, my indonesia :)
HAPPY 65th ANNIVERSARY INDONESIA
August 17 2010
My lovely country..
INDONESIA
The biggest archipelago country, consists of thousands island in equator..
Thats the country i live, i grow up..
What do you think about indonesia?
Its still young country..65 in age (older then mine exactly LOL)
My classmate in high school ever told me, when she was in USA for student exchange (1 year program) she introduced herself to stranger, and that stranger asked, “Indonesia? Whats that? is there a country named Indonesia?” oh gosh *crying* so lets think positive..maybe the stranger never attended geography class.. haha.
And my friend also told me about what people asked (so weird questions) curiously, when she was telling about Indonesia. Those weird questions are:
Is there any car in ur country?
Can u use internet?
Do u use mobile phone? Etc etc..
*laughing*
Hey guys, lets visit Indonesia and u will know the answer. LOL. I still cant understand whats on their mind..
I think every country in this planet has their own weakness and goodness. Does indonesia. Every nation, every country is unique. Maybe i dont deserve to talk this coz i never go abroad. Hehe. But internet really makes have wide sight about this world and the difference among every country. And im always curious about another countries, about their customs, their people’s characteristics.. Im not racist, im sure. I think racism is too old to live today. But okay, everyone has their own point of view about races. Once i got on omegle, mostly strangers would be disconnected if i said ‘im from indonesia’ or ‘im an asian’ LOL. Once i ever got msgs from someone, before he/ she dsconnected.. “oh u are from east earth hemisphere, where internet connection is walking slowly like a snail” -__- bzzz. So what huh? Well okay okay whatever they thought. In fact the internet connection is really really damn. Makes me upset. Haha.
Ermm..i consider this country is moving forward so fast..too fast. But still cant leave the traditional side, a side that indonesians call it as eastern customs. Hehe. Am i talking too much?
I love this country..islands country..place in equator..tropical country.. but the tempreature is not too high or too low, coz the sea gives humidity in the air, the temperature can be stable, cool, and almost the same through the year.. i never see snow in indonesia, coz there’s no winter..no 4 seasons. This country just has 2 seasons, rainy and sunny. The lucky one is i live in awesome city..malang city. Not too big city in java island. I feel so comfort live here. Malang is famous coz its cool air, apple, flowers, and the education. Many universities and colleges in this city. Maybe the lifestyles is still under jakarta..but its no need high cost to live in malang. Haha.
Hey u guys..this is my country ! I wanna show to ppl around this planet THIS IS INDONESIA, my country, my indonesia :)
HAPPY 65th ANNIVERSARY INDONESIA
August 17 2010
relationship
LDR. mostly ppl around me say LDR -long distance relationship- the condition where a couple have relationship but they are far each other.
lol
but in my dictionary i dont have LDR. i have VVLDUIR. Very long distance unreachable impossible relationship. Should i say that? hehe. wise words say nothing impossible. well im not totally believe in that words. nothing impossible for God. for me, an ordinary girl, i consider those words depend on situation. How many possibilities it has? hehe
well. just let it flow. let the future says. and everything will be awesome in the right time.
:)
lol
but in my dictionary i dont have LDR. i have VVLDUIR. Very long distance unreachable impossible relationship. Should i say that? hehe. wise words say nothing impossible. well im not totally believe in that words. nothing impossible for God. for me, an ordinary girl, i consider those words depend on situation. How many possibilities it has? hehe
well. just let it flow. let the future says. and everything will be awesome in the right time.
:)
facebook note, posted here before i deleted this note
why did u make me fly so high? High till i cudnt see where i live. High till i cudnt imagine hows the pain is if i fall down. How many 'i understand' you needed to make u believe that i really understood. How many reasons u needed to explain to me,as if im such a stupid girl that wont understand what u speakin. How many times sud i say 'im so glad to meet u' to make u understand that u are special. I always said -i understand, i know, i see- but, did u really trust me that i did understand? How about saying 'i understand' with my tears fallin down?
Fly so high after long time. U cud do that well for me. Lol. How fool iam. Ya. I cudnt fly, but u gave me wings..when i was flying, too high, u took that wings. And again i said 'i understand' ..
Now fallin down, free fall. Wat the pain. I gave u the best ending ever, i made it the happy ending for u, i didnt care wit wat i felt..i just wanna make u smile, coz that happy ending, in our last story.
And now when i hvent seen ur smile yet, again i say.. 'i understand' .if nw u r in front of me, im gonna kill u. Rawr. Lol. Nono. I will show my best smile, say 'i understand', and walk away from u. As u said to me,that im a strong girl. I'll be strong girl.
.just frm the past story.
.lets make a new start.
.n i don care.
-__-
AND..THIS ONE
orry if i let this feeling fall toO deep
its out of my expectation that it gonna be so far
its too late to realize that we are totally different
at first..i thought i could manage my mind..i could give fences around that
but who knows..eventually -- i cant.
how fool i am. yes.
wth with this feeling
at first i said 'let it flow'
and ive given to much 'let' i think..
ironic
how fool i am.
let me know what happen with u..
just temme and i'll understand
im sure i'll understand
i promise
now
who cares with my tears
who cares with my sadness
who cares with my insanity
i just wanna say that i was really enjoy all of the moments with u.
thanks alot for being my friend
anyway..
i sang unholy confession -a7x-
whole the day
i was about crazy of that song nowdays
:P
especially the refrain part
"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all.
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart.
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me"
i wanna be "The one"
:)
Fly so high after long time. U cud do that well for me. Lol. How fool iam. Ya. I cudnt fly, but u gave me wings..when i was flying, too high, u took that wings. And again i said 'i understand' ..
Now fallin down, free fall. Wat the pain. I gave u the best ending ever, i made it the happy ending for u, i didnt care wit wat i felt..i just wanna make u smile, coz that happy ending, in our last story.
And now when i hvent seen ur smile yet, again i say.. 'i understand' .if nw u r in front of me, im gonna kill u. Rawr. Lol. Nono. I will show my best smile, say 'i understand', and walk away from u. As u said to me,that im a strong girl. I'll be strong girl.
.just frm the past story.
.lets make a new start.
.n i don care.
-__-
AND..THIS ONE
orry if i let this feeling fall toO deep
its out of my expectation that it gonna be so far
its too late to realize that we are totally different
at first..i thought i could manage my mind..i could give fences around that
but who knows..eventually -- i cant.
how fool i am. yes.
wth with this feeling
at first i said 'let it flow'
and ive given to much 'let' i think..
ironic
how fool i am.
let me know what happen with u..
just temme and i'll understand
im sure i'll understand
i promise
now
who cares with my tears
who cares with my sadness
who cares with my insanity
i just wanna say that i was really enjoy all of the moments with u.
thanks alot for being my friend
anyway..
i sang unholy confession -a7x-
whole the day
i was about crazy of that song nowdays
:P
especially the refrain part
"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all.
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart.
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me"
i wanna be "The one"
:)
promises
its not hard to pay all promises. No doubt in it..
I really know how does some one feel about looking forward a promise. Once i was child, my old cousin said 'i will give u a school bag. Which one u want, pink or red?' i did remembered what she said till now, tho i havent wanted that bag already,, but i think thts my first time someone said promise to me, in fact i didnt get that bag. Its not about i got my bag or not, its about trust. I place trust in someone and i wish too much in her or him,,then i get nothing.
I always try to pay my promises, to keep another trust on me..
Now, still waiting for a promise to be realized by someone. Are you trustable, dude? -sigh-
:)
cheers
I really know how does some one feel about looking forward a promise. Once i was child, my old cousin said 'i will give u a school bag. Which one u want, pink or red?' i did remembered what she said till now, tho i havent wanted that bag already,, but i think thts my first time someone said promise to me, in fact i didnt get that bag. Its not about i got my bag or not, its about trust. I place trust in someone and i wish too much in her or him,,then i get nothing.
I always try to pay my promises, to keep another trust on me..
Now, still waiting for a promise to be realized by someone. Are you trustable, dude? -sigh-
:)
cheers
its me
i wish i could be the one, the one who won't care at all..but being the one on the stand, i know the way to go, no one's guiding me..
When time soaked with blood turns it back, I KNOW IT'S HARD TO FALL, confided in me was your heart..i know its hurting you,but its killin me..
-unholy confession-
I love that song.
btw..i'll have test, 2 days later. Not so important test, coz i dont expect too much in it. I take the test to get Japan scholarship. Its sooo difficult. Oyea. Thats why i study hardly for it. Never study. Hahha. I just wish the best luck for me.
I believe with the power of dream. But i dont want to have a dream. Coz my life so far, if i dream something , i'll not get it. Hahha. So i'd like to say let it flow. Maybe im stupid coz dont have any destiny. Lol. But its me.
Huaa
i talked too much here. damn .
:)
When time soaked with blood turns it back, I KNOW IT'S HARD TO FALL, confided in me was your heart..i know its hurting you,but its killin me..
-unholy confession-
I love that song.
btw..i'll have test, 2 days later. Not so important test, coz i dont expect too much in it. I take the test to get Japan scholarship. Its sooo difficult. Oyea. Thats why i study hardly for it. Never study. Hahha. I just wish the best luck for me.
I believe with the power of dream. But i dont want to have a dream. Coz my life so far, if i dream something , i'll not get it. Hahha. So i'd like to say let it flow. Maybe im stupid coz dont have any destiny. Lol. But its me.
Huaa
i talked too much here. damn .
:)
and still im so young, yeah
My life review so far..im still young girl.
Haha
Today i met my bestfriend, and we told our each story. Then i cried. Haha..
So far..i love my life, suprise life. I never expected will met many amazing ppl. This life is too amazing..too suprising. So why i waste my time just to remember bad stories?
Seize the day.
lets make a new start
well.today my bestfriend mad at me, why? Coz i just said 'thats okay, i understand, i know, i see' ,and i didnt tell what i was feeling, yeaa to someone over there. I prefer said thats okay,,coz i think its useless..no use..i dont want add new chapter of story in this past book. Its ended already..the end. Please dont make me fly again.
Sometimes i thought bout how close the similarity between stupid and understanding. Have u ever thought that? Lol !! How stupid i am. Sigh.
thats okay. Im not angry , mad, or yeaa such another useless expression. I just wanna say thank you coz u ever made me fly, went along with me to fairlyland, made my imagination grew so fast,,so fast till i believed i was livin in fairy land..where prince would married with ugly poor girl, where prince could marry with his servant. Lol!
Haha
Today i met my bestfriend, and we told our each story. Then i cried. Haha..
So far..i love my life, suprise life. I never expected will met many amazing ppl. This life is too amazing..too suprising. So why i waste my time just to remember bad stories?
Seize the day.
lets make a new start
well.today my bestfriend mad at me, why? Coz i just said 'thats okay, i understand, i know, i see' ,and i didnt tell what i was feeling, yeaa to someone over there. I prefer said thats okay,,coz i think its useless..no use..i dont want add new chapter of story in this past book. Its ended already..the end. Please dont make me fly again.
Sometimes i thought bout how close the similarity between stupid and understanding. Have u ever thought that? Lol !! How stupid i am. Sigh.
thats okay. Im not angry , mad, or yeaa such another useless expression. I just wanna say thank you coz u ever made me fly, went along with me to fairlyland, made my imagination grew so fast,,so fast till i believed i was livin in fairy land..where prince would married with ugly poor girl, where prince could marry with his servant. Lol!
so lets make a new start
when i watched drama.. -i think i shouldnt write what that drama is- yea, i saw actress, beautiful girl. And you know whats on my mind 'does girl like that?' LOL ! now im laughing at myself. Does he like girl like that, beautiful one?and i saw awesome lifestyle, definitely different life with mine. Why there's so many differences between me and him?! All differences face me up, its the fact, and the fact is 'we have differences, too much !'
Is it love? NO. its self ambition. And dammit i dont know how to kill this damn ambition. How does love feel? How does he feel? And i said again, it's..i mean this feeling has been out of my expectation. I should have known what the risk to place him in the certain part of my heart,, well this was just my 1st experience,,so i didnt mind it will have bad ending. I dont care.
When i imagined about him, thought about him, and chased his shadow,,on the middle of the way to, i realized i was chasing nothing.
Just let this feeling die.
Yesterday something hit my face. About the fact that u had realized this feeling. I knew, u will know that from everyword i wrote, everycare i gave..in that gift.. -sigh- well. Now i dont care. Its already ended. Just my past story. Thanks to take a part in my life.
Sometimes i feel amazing with what i can do to raise my heart, amazing to have power to think all positively. My friends ever asked me 'do u have any problms in ur life?' LOL. hey guys..i also have prblms..but yeaa i just try to be friend with prblms.
:)
Just remember avenged sevenfold's song lyric -so lets make a new start-
hihi.
Have a nice day ahead
Is it love? NO. its self ambition. And dammit i dont know how to kill this damn ambition. How does love feel? How does he feel? And i said again, it's..i mean this feeling has been out of my expectation. I should have known what the risk to place him in the certain part of my heart,, well this was just my 1st experience,,so i didnt mind it will have bad ending. I dont care.
When i imagined about him, thought about him, and chased his shadow,,on the middle of the way to, i realized i was chasing nothing.
Just let this feeling die.
Yesterday something hit my face. About the fact that u had realized this feeling. I knew, u will know that from everyword i wrote, everycare i gave..in that gift.. -sigh- well. Now i dont care. Its already ended. Just my past story. Thanks to take a part in my life.
Sometimes i feel amazing with what i can do to raise my heart, amazing to have power to think all positively. My friends ever asked me 'do u have any problms in ur life?' LOL. hey guys..i also have prblms..but yeaa i just try to be friend with prblms.
:)
Just remember avenged sevenfold's song lyric -so lets make a new start-
hihi.
Have a nice day ahead
LOST IN BALI
I went to bali island just with my brother. At first we would go there by plane, but there was problem to go to airport coz Lapindo mud blocks the way to airport, it would take time if i went there. So we decided to use Bus about 10 hours on the bus.
The must item we have to bring was MAP. Yeah BALI MAP. We had crazy plans there..using map to go anywhere..riding motorcycle for transportation..and rent motorcycle..
Well..i arrived in bali at 5 am. We were confused.
The must item we have to bring was MAP. Yeah BALI MAP. We had crazy plans there..using map to go anywhere..riding motorcycle for transportation..and rent motorcycle..
Well..i arrived in bali at 5 am. We were confused.
Me : then, where will we go?
Bro : I dont know
Me : How about going to Kuta beach?
Bro : Okay
-__- oh mom, it was sooo absurd vacation. But i was enjoyed that..
Bro : I dont know
Me : How about going to Kuta beach?
Bro : Okay
-__- oh mom, it was sooo absurd vacation. But i was enjoyed that..
kuta beach 5 a.m. LOL
After did something absurd in kuat beach..we wanna looking for hotel. And we got it.
First day there, i went to my cousin’s house in Sukawati. There’s art market names Sukawati that sells manythings especially handycrafts and souvenirs from Bali. After shopping, we went to Sanur Beach..the sunrise beach
First day there, i went to my cousin’s house in Sukawati. There’s art market names Sukawati that sells manythings especially handycrafts and souvenirs from Bali. After shopping, we went to Sanur Beach..the sunrise beach
Sanur beach :D
Oh!! Thing that i was really suprised was there were so many tourisms and foreigners that using motorcycle for transportation. They rent motorcycle then ride that around bali. Wow..it proved me that foreigners arent afraid riding motorcycle. LOL. They looked so strange riding moto. I thoought they prefer to rent moto because its cheaper than rent car..
Second day. We went to GWK (Graha Wisnu Kencana). Its the place where tha balinese dance and arts show..but unfortunatelly i was there not in the right time..there’s no performance yet. The next visiting...BALANGAN BEACH..where the surfers live!! The beach is still virgin and so cleannnn. There’s no domestic tourism there, just some foreigners . The conclusion: I was really succesful make my skin being tan in balangan beach!!
After balangan beach we went to Nusa Dua beach, exactly in benoa. We wanted to go to Turtle island..so we went to that awesome island by boat..
After balangan beach we went to Nusa Dua beach, exactly in benoa. We wanted to go to Turtle island..so we went to that awesome island by boat..
GWK Bali Indonesia
Balangan beach
My bro with turtle in turtle island
Third day. We went to Bedugul lake..the place is in the mountain so its cold there..
Yeah thats all
the story in my great vacation.
Yeah thats all
the story in my great vacation. bedugul lake :)
nyangnyangnyang :D
Hi anne
Welcome back
After long time i didnt post anything here
Well..with new spirit, i’d say welcome to my life :D nyanyanyang
Hhing
Maybe April 26th 2010 would be my victory date. Wassup wassup? LOL
I’ll tell the story one by one
The victory began when i had plan to have short holiday in Bali Island with my brother thanks bro :-*
Welcome back
After long time i didnt post anything here
Well..with new spirit, i’d say welcome to my life :D nyanyanyang
Hhing
Maybe April 26th 2010 would be my victory date. Wassup wassup? LOL
I’ll tell the story one by one
The victory began when i had plan to have short holiday in Bali Island with my brother thanks bro :-*
well..i made that plan before i took final national examination. And the dates had been planned already april 22-25 2010. I was so happy then :D
But my great plan almost broken coz i had just known that the result on final exam would be announced in april 26. It looked crazy ya know..where the other last year students in Indonesia should be nervous and pray alot for the result, me -__- as the last year student had vacation, very great vacation in bali, had adventure in bali with my brother. But my brother didnt care about that, he stated, “we have to go there!!”
Oh my lady gaga -__-
So i went there..tried to still not nervous but..aye i couldnt hide my nervous. My mind was full of negative thinking about that result.
-three days vacation in bali, i had it happily-
-well i wanna tell how’s my vacation is in the next post- :P
So..i back to malang in april 25 by bus. The trip would take 1 nite..so i’d arrive in malang in april 26!! Ya know it’s the date when the result was announced. I waited that announcement coz it’s very important for me to choose next study besides there’s prize for me if i could get the average more than 9.00. Its kinda like tradition in my family, especially for me in final exam to get prize if i could get good mark. But for this final examination just my father wanna have bet for the result of my exam. He said, “if u could get average more than 9.00 i’d give u 5 million” ... Aye. I knew why he took bet and gave so big starting price,,yeah coz its hard for me to get that 9.00 in average. -__- so i didnt give any hope in that bet. 5 million rupiah is too much for me. I can buy manythings with that bucks.
The result would be announced to parents, so my father went to school to take that result. I was still at home. Then my father called me by phone, he said “you got that millions”
Oh my gosh!!
LOL. I cleaned out that bet. I got avergae 9.18 for final examination. Its out from my expectation. Why not,,coz as i did when final examination, i spent to much time on bed, sleeping, and playing game. Thats why my father bravely gave me that million in bet. LOL. And i got it. Sorry papa you were just lil unlucky :P
I was really satisfied with my result in final examination. I got total marks 55.10 from 6 examination subjects. Thanks God, i got the fair price with my efforts in final exam :D
picture below is pic with my classmates..when we went out for karaoke together
i love this moment :)
Short Conversation for Speaking English Test
Today..i made conversation for speaking english test with lukman
we had fun today..and laugh together :D
the topic of this babo conversation is giving opinion..
and we got this crazy idea and topic
:P
L : hi anne, are you okay?
A : hi lukman. yes, i’m okay
L : really? Im not sure.
A : yeah, i’m definitely okay. Never mind.
L : but you look so blue. I know you must have a problem. Just tell me.
A : okay, maybe you can help me. Actually i need somebody to listen my problem.
L : okay. Just tell me.
A : yesterday, i had a problem with my boyfriend. Then we had a bad quarrel.
L : why? What happened?
A : actually, the problem began because of simple matter. He never sent me message these days and he never called me by phone anymore.
L : how about talking to him at school?
A : yeah i’ve tried to tell him about my feeling. I said that i need his care.
L : so you feel that he doesn’t care you. Oh, that’s bad. But i think you can send him message and call him by phone everytime if u want.
A: unfortunately he never replied my messages and never pick up his phone.
L : oh, i’m sorry to hear that. he is so bad. Umm..but Anne, i also ever done that to my girlfriend, once i was feeling fed up with my life or had big problem that i didnt want my girlfriend to know it.
A: Ahh..the boys always do that
L: But but..i didnt do that for along time, no more than 2 days. How about your boyfriend?
A: it’s about 3 weeks we lost contact.
L: how awful
A : then, what should i do?
L : hhmmm, if i were you, i would break up that relationship. It’s outrageous
A : oh please. It’s not as easy as your thought. I love him so much. He’s my first boyfriend
L : oh, i can understand your feeling eventhough i’m a boy.
A : i think this is my worst part of my life.
L : hhmm, anne. . hmmm..
A : what?
L : hmm...i dont know whether you have known this or not. But yesterday, i saw him at matos with a girl.
A : oh really ? huuuwwuuoouuu
L : oh wait, don’t think it negatively. Maybe she’s his sister, or one of his relatives.
A : it’s impossible to him to have a date with another girl. I know him so much. He is such a faithful boy.
L : oh, i think so too
A : so, what can i do now? I’m just sitting here alone, waiting for him..who cares with me, but i still believe that he will come here and pick me up.
L : oh anne, how pity you are. Don’t you think to escape from this situation? This is not good for you. Come on wake up and open your eyes, realize that everyone around you is always be with you and help you escape from this problem.
A : I know that it’s not good for me and i dont want to have problem like this.
L : Try to understand him, sometimes we need time to ourself.
A : I also thought like that. I tried to think positively, but i considered that this is not the right way. Maybe he felt that this is the best way for him and me, but YOU KNOW..it’s hurting me.
L: yaa..be patient, Anne. It’s just about the time, just wait until the right time and he will be back to you.
A: But for how long? I feel cant wait it too longer anymore.
L: ohh please, it’s not you..as i know you are a tough girl.
A: hmm..i think i need to move on. i feel little bit relief now and i have to grow up and be a wise person.
L : Yeah..i think so.
A: Thanks lukman, you are a good friend, thanks for your care.
L : That’s my pleasure to help you
A: Okay let’s go home now. It’s too late. I wanna reevaluate myself then.
L : ya..that’s good for you
A : And i decide to meet my boyfriend, and talk this problem seriously.
L: Okay. Hope ur problem will over soon.
A: I hope so.
L : I want to see you brighter tomorrow and see ur smile again
A : Yea..Bbye lukman
L : Bbbye, seeya
LOL
wish me luck for this test tomorrow
:)
we had fun today..and laugh together :D
the topic of this babo conversation is giving opinion..
and we got this crazy idea and topic
:P
L : hi anne, are you okay?
A : hi lukman. yes, i’m okay
L : really? Im not sure.
A : yeah, i’m definitely okay. Never mind.
L : but you look so blue. I know you must have a problem. Just tell me.
A : okay, maybe you can help me. Actually i need somebody to listen my problem.
L : okay. Just tell me.
A : yesterday, i had a problem with my boyfriend. Then we had a bad quarrel.
L : why? What happened?
A : actually, the problem began because of simple matter. He never sent me message these days and he never called me by phone anymore.
L : how about talking to him at school?
A : yeah i’ve tried to tell him about my feeling. I said that i need his care.
L : so you feel that he doesn’t care you. Oh, that’s bad. But i think you can send him message and call him by phone everytime if u want.
A: unfortunately he never replied my messages and never pick up his phone.
L : oh, i’m sorry to hear that. he is so bad. Umm..but Anne, i also ever done that to my girlfriend, once i was feeling fed up with my life or had big problem that i didnt want my girlfriend to know it.
A: Ahh..the boys always do that
L: But but..i didnt do that for along time, no more than 2 days. How about your boyfriend?
A: it’s about 3 weeks we lost contact.
L: how awful
A : then, what should i do?
L : hhmmm, if i were you, i would break up that relationship. It’s outrageous
A : oh please. It’s not as easy as your thought. I love him so much. He’s my first boyfriend
L : oh, i can understand your feeling eventhough i’m a boy.
A : i think this is my worst part of my life.
L : hhmm, anne. . hmmm..
A : what?
L : hmm...i dont know whether you have known this or not. But yesterday, i saw him at matos with a girl.
A : oh really ? huuuwwuuoouuu
L : oh wait, don’t think it negatively. Maybe she’s his sister, or one of his relatives.
A : it’s impossible to him to have a date with another girl. I know him so much. He is such a faithful boy.
L : oh, i think so too
A : so, what can i do now? I’m just sitting here alone, waiting for him..who cares with me, but i still believe that he will come here and pick me up.
L : oh anne, how pity you are. Don’t you think to escape from this situation? This is not good for you. Come on wake up and open your eyes, realize that everyone around you is always be with you and help you escape from this problem.
A : I know that it’s not good for me and i dont want to have problem like this.
L : Try to understand him, sometimes we need time to ourself.
A : I also thought like that. I tried to think positively, but i considered that this is not the right way. Maybe he felt that this is the best way for him and me, but YOU KNOW..it’s hurting me.
L: yaa..be patient, Anne. It’s just about the time, just wait until the right time and he will be back to you.
A: But for how long? I feel cant wait it too longer anymore.
L: ohh please, it’s not you..as i know you are a tough girl.
A: hmm..i think i need to move on. i feel little bit relief now and i have to grow up and be a wise person.
L : Yeah..i think so.
A: Thanks lukman, you are a good friend, thanks for your care.
L : That’s my pleasure to help you
A: Okay let’s go home now. It’s too late. I wanna reevaluate myself then.
L : ya..that’s good for you
A : And i decide to meet my boyfriend, and talk this problem seriously.
L: Okay. Hope ur problem will over soon.
A: I hope so.
L : I want to see you brighter tomorrow and see ur smile again
A : Yea..Bbye lukman
L : Bbbye, seeya
LOL
wish me luck for this test tomorrow
:)
cheers up, boy!!
Make a decision is not as easy as i thought.
though ive made many decisions in my life..
but just yesterday,i realized that all my decisions ive made..are the best way for me. coz after that i could find important lesson then
just yesterday, my friend..made his decision..not big decision but i had never known a boy like him could make decision like that. he's my best friend, he tells me everything..and thats my pleasure to be his trusted friend. :)
the decision was about girl..as i said not a big decision. haha. i never got him to easily give up in something, especially to have a crush in a girl. but he said "i wanna make new start, i wanna forget about her..and try to open new life then"
as a good friend i said "why not? if u think that it's the best way and will make u better than before, i'll always support u. Cheers up!!"
it made me remeber about my decision, what he said was almost the same with what i said hmm maybe 2 years ago..in my life. I know it's hard to forget something.. but look! i can forget all..i can survive till now..i can smile widely today..i can enjoy my life and continue my special life.
Cheers up, boy!! it's just about the time..just let it flow..let it be..and all gonna be alright. it'd be good for you in the right time. And after that u can find new experience, with new story, new chapter of life, new person, new happiness..
:D
SEMANGAT!!
good angler
yesterday at school..my friend asked me about something strange that i didnt want to write here (lol)
it's about my feeling
she's kinda like good angler that made me tell to her about my feeling.
eventually i write lil conversation with her, here.. just lil part
:)
friend: do u love him?
me: no. no for now.
friend: hahaha. so u loved him before now.. lol
me: maybe (smile)
friend: why dont u love him now? hate him?
me: i never hate him. hahha
friend: tell me more, anne
me: well..i just didnt wanna waste my time. i felt my feeling was useless. so, why i still keep my feeling. im killing my feeling now. and..consider of me, my feeling to him was not umm..such of crush or love, maybe just -something different-, yeah i felt something different, no more..
friend: how if he said love to you?
me: (smile) that's my pleasure
and then..we laughed together.
friend: i beg sure for how long u can forget him.. haha
me: lol. i didnt have any plan to forget him. i'll neve forget him. i just wanna kill my feeling. lol.
-my feeling to him isn't right-
it's about my feeling
she's kinda like good angler that made me tell to her about my feeling.
eventually i write lil conversation with her, here.. just lil part
:)
friend: do u love him?
me: no. no for now.
friend: hahaha. so u loved him before now.. lol
me: maybe (smile)
friend: why dont u love him now? hate him?
me: i never hate him. hahha
friend: tell me more, anne
me: well..i just didnt wanna waste my time. i felt my feeling was useless. so, why i still keep my feeling. im killing my feeling now. and..consider of me, my feeling to him was not umm..such of crush or love, maybe just -something different-, yeah i felt something different, no more..
friend: how if he said love to you?
me: (smile) that's my pleasure
and then..we laughed together.
friend: i beg sure for how long u can forget him.. haha
me: lol. i didnt have any plan to forget him. i'll neve forget him. i just wanna kill my feeling. lol.
-my feeling to him isn't right-
how fool i am.. :'(
im gonna be crazy
haha
i took exam to go to university..and i choose Brawijaya University
that university made me remember about my "unbelievable, unforgetable but it should had be forgotten already.." experience, approximately last year..
the story began when strange boy came to my house..he's son of my dad's friend.
came from jakarta -capital city of indonesia- in order to study in Brawijaya University. omg -__-
i remember clearly, after i took shower in the evening..my mom said to me, "Dek, lets dinner outside with dad's friend" .. I, as the girl who loves eating too much, certainly said "YESSSH!!" loudly and happily :P
we'd dinner in famous roasted chicken in my hometown..
after that, i opened my wardrobe..confused about what kind of clothes i'd wear.
suddenly..my room lamp's off. oh my gosh! blackout..power off(well.i dunno how i should say 'lampu mati' in english) , i heard my dad (he's such of temperamental dad) shouted to me (loudly) "An!! what are u doing in ur room?! come on quickly" .. huh.
i grabed a pink t-shirt from my wardrobe, of coursely in the dark room without bulb. I like the pink t-shirt..it has 5 buttons from top to the middle of the tees.
i was kinda like blind person when changing my clothes..coz of the darkness. i touched the upper button, "oh it's buttoned up already" ..then i run to car.
me, my mam, my dad, a couple of my dad's friend, and their son would go to have dinner. -let me call the son as 'boy' esp in this post-
and..
my mam and the boy's mam asked me to have seat on the backpart of my car..with the boy. just me and the boy. -__-
i'd never met the boy before..but fortunatelly he's friendly and has so many topics to talk. phew.
we're on the car for about 30 minutes,,
then..we had dinner together.
we talked much (my parents told about me, and boy's parents talked about him..etc -__-)..we laughed..my stomach's full and i's happy :D
suddenly, i looked at my pink t-shirt, OH MY GOD!!
i was seeing that just the most upper button had already buttoned up. the others're not! wth wtf..i was gonna cry. mama~~
THEN..
on the way to back to my home..
i sit still with the boy..i prefer keep silent.. took a bow. just be silent.. so embarrasing. he talked to me and asked something but i was too shy to answer.
-___-
clumsy anne
now..he studies in brawijaya university take dentistry.
i wish i'd never meet him there.
huwang.
haha
i took exam to go to university..and i choose Brawijaya University
that university made me remember about my "unbelievable, unforgetable but it should had be forgotten already.." experience, approximately last year..
the story began when strange boy came to my house..he's son of my dad's friend.
came from jakarta -capital city of indonesia- in order to study in Brawijaya University. omg -__-
i remember clearly, after i took shower in the evening..my mom said to me, "Dek, lets dinner outside with dad's friend" .. I, as the girl who loves eating too much, certainly said "YESSSH!!" loudly and happily :P
we'd dinner in famous roasted chicken in my hometown..
after that, i opened my wardrobe..confused about what kind of clothes i'd wear.
suddenly..my room lamp's off. oh my gosh! blackout..power off(well.i dunno how i should say 'lampu mati' in english) , i heard my dad (he's such of temperamental dad) shouted to me (loudly) "An!! what are u doing in ur room?! come on quickly" .. huh.
i grabed a pink t-shirt from my wardrobe, of coursely in the dark room without bulb. I like the pink t-shirt..it has 5 buttons from top to the middle of the tees.
i was kinda like blind person when changing my clothes..coz of the darkness. i touched the upper button, "oh it's buttoned up already" ..then i run to car.
me, my mam, my dad, a couple of my dad's friend, and their son would go to have dinner. -let me call the son as 'boy' esp in this post-
and..
my mam and the boy's mam asked me to have seat on the backpart of my car..with the boy. just me and the boy. -__-
i'd never met the boy before..but fortunatelly he's friendly and has so many topics to talk. phew.
we're on the car for about 30 minutes,,
then..we had dinner together.
we talked much (my parents told about me, and boy's parents talked about him..etc -__-)..we laughed..my stomach's full and i's happy :D
suddenly, i looked at my pink t-shirt, OH MY GOD!!
i was seeing that just the most upper button had already buttoned up. the others're not! wth wtf..i was gonna cry. mama~~
THEN..
on the way to back to my home..
i sit still with the boy..i prefer keep silent.. took a bow. just be silent.. so embarrasing. he talked to me and asked something but i was too shy to answer.
-___-
clumsy anne
now..he studies in brawijaya university take dentistry.
i wish i'd never meet him there.
huwang.
countdown: 8days left
prepare prepare prepare prepare.
Im preparing for examination.
Huaaaang. ::crying::
These days..my brain automatically thought something with formula-based view.
E.g. : im pretty tired now. Ive just said to myself "oh anne, there are too many lactic acid in ur legs." then, Lactic acid made me remember to alcohol,,both are anaerob metabolism of glucose..but the difference both them is acetal dehide..
Ok.i'll stop this lecture..
Am i crazy?
lol
yesterday.
When i was riding my motorcycle..i saw the shadow of my moto..i thought so many things, about velocity, speed, distance, movement, instantaneous velocity, angular velocity,etc
oh my God!
When i sam my face in mirror..look! There are so many formulas on my face
..overthinking
Yes.
.
.
Im going to take a nap..
Bbye.
Im preparing for examination.
Huaaaang. ::crying::
These days..my brain automatically thought something with formula-based view.
E.g. : im pretty tired now. Ive just said to myself "oh anne, there are too many lactic acid in ur legs." then, Lactic acid made me remember to alcohol,,both are anaerob metabolism of glucose..but the difference both them is acetal dehide..
Ok.i'll stop this lecture..
Am i crazy?
lol
yesterday.
When i was riding my motorcycle..i saw the shadow of my moto..i thought so many things, about velocity, speed, distance, movement, instantaneous velocity, angular velocity,etc
oh my God!
When i sam my face in mirror..look! There are so many formulas on my face
..overthinking
Yes.
.
.
Im going to take a nap..
Bbye.
im just an ordinary indonesian girl :)
indonesian girls
.in my sight. are famous with traditional characteristic.
Indonesian girl still shows the point of the real woman
They are kind of woman who think that women are created to walk behind the men.
They will not cry in front of the men, in order to show to the men that they are still alright.
lil hipocrispy? :)
Indonesian girls..will say 'im okay' eventho they are really in low condition of life
Indonesian girls..prefer keep silent and keep 'the love' in their heart, they are too shy to say love first..
They like to see 'prince charming..the boy she loves', than run to him and say hello.
They like to show their love by care and attention to others, not by schmoozer's words.
:)
im indonesian girl.
And the silly things ive done these days..are let this feeling fall to deep. I gave too much 'let'
I realized thats my fault..
so i decided to kill 'this feeling'
And be an ordinary indonesian girl again.
Just 'wait' and 'see'..
:)
.in my sight. are famous with traditional characteristic.
Indonesian girl still shows the point of the real woman
They are kind of woman who think that women are created to walk behind the men.
They will not cry in front of the men, in order to show to the men that they are still alright.
lil hipocrispy? :)
Indonesian girls..will say 'im okay' eventho they are really in low condition of life
Indonesian girls..prefer keep silent and keep 'the love' in their heart, they are too shy to say love first..
They like to see 'prince charming..the boy she loves', than run to him and say hello.
They like to show their love by care and attention to others, not by schmoozer's words.
:)
im indonesian girl.
And the silly things ive done these days..are let this feeling fall to deep. I gave too much 'let'
I realized thats my fault..
so i decided to kill 'this feeling'
And be an ordinary indonesian girl again.
Just 'wait' and 'see'..
:)
whateva
T.T
what have i done?
today
there's something that made me shocked
when one of my friend..my classmate..she's gf of my ex-bf now, said something to me.
lol.
lil complicated i think..
well.. i think i have no control to take myself in to their love life
i dig their relation ship..
i always try to keep my relation to both of them
they are still my classmate
and my story with my ex-bf is just a past..
everything i do to both of them is because they are still my classmate,, i never had any thought about doing something good in order to take their heart,,
oh my gosh, i never thought like that.. T.T
why i write this post..
coz..ok..back to what ive got today
she said (i dont know she said it seriously or just joke)
she said to my friends and me"haha, huh, anne i know..u just pretend showing ur kindness to me, u just wanna take my heart...... "
i was shocked.
-__-
why she said like that?
am i wrong if i thought like what i write here?
i could make conclusion that she considered all of the things ive done to her, all because i wanna take her heart..to show her that im kind girl.
that's wrong!!
i did something to her, all were same as i did to others, especially my classmates..
i love them all my classmates
:)
kk..whateva she thought about me,,
who cares.
:)
i just wanna enjoy my life..
what have i done?
today
there's something that made me shocked
when one of my friend..my classmate..she's gf of my ex-bf now, said something to me.
lol.
lil complicated i think..
well.. i think i have no control to take myself in to their love life
i dig their relation ship..
i always try to keep my relation to both of them
they are still my classmate
and my story with my ex-bf is just a past..
everything i do to both of them is because they are still my classmate,, i never had any thought about doing something good in order to take their heart,,
oh my gosh, i never thought like that.. T.T
why i write this post..
coz..ok..back to what ive got today
she said (i dont know she said it seriously or just joke)
she said to my friends and me"haha, huh, anne i know..u just pretend showing ur kindness to me, u just wanna take my heart...... "
i was shocked.
-__-
why she said like that?
am i wrong if i thought like what i write here?
i could make conclusion that she considered all of the things ive done to her, all because i wanna take her heart..to show her that im kind girl.
that's wrong!!
i did something to her, all were same as i did to others, especially my classmates..
i love them all my classmates
:)
kk..whateva she thought about me,,
who cares.
:)
i just wanna enjoy my life..
trashed and scattered -___-
i like this avenged song..
but i think the lyrics are too heavy, too hard for me..
for an ordinary indonesian girl.
hahaha..
ohh..this post, proves me that i cant keep my fingers from going online.
oh gosh
---trashed and scattered---
Keep on writing you're just raping yourself
(nothing can take my mind away from them)
Don't you ask about me, ask 'bout somebody else
(Once I've fallen there's many stories to tell)
I can feel it, won't embrace it, it's overwhelming how far you take it
(Stuck in a state of questioning)
And don't you tell me you know we're destined, you won't convince me, I won't listen
(Resentment building, you've put our lives on hold)
Trashed and scattered again, I'm feelin' so low
You waste your breath while fuckin' with me, my blood is so cold
My destination always unknown, I'll find my way there
But you Goddamn Motherfuckers always wasting my time
I won't be the victim, but the first to cast a stone
Sedated nights to the bar room fights as metropolis takes its toll
And don't you try to stop me, it's a place you'll never know
Don't try to judge or take shots at me, I'll never let you seize control
Play your game and walk away, your integrity don't mean shit
Crawl on me you fucking parasite, and I'm gonna take you out
Label me, that's fine, I'll be somebody else
(Nothing in front of me but holes ahead)
Lie about my life, have a story to tell
(Lights went down, was on the edge and I fell)
Oh you're so insightful, let me remind you to twist and break me, should make you worried
(Long way to go and you're right there)
Two-faced liar, don't try and know me, deceit brings fire, makes sure you can't breathe
(Pick at pieces of my body below)
I never bothered with all the rumors, too much garbage
(All the same)
I'll stand right here, come on you falsehood deceitful liar
(I know my destination - there's no shame)
Don't ever take my side, I know you're never right, I'll justify the means
(Nothing's what it seems)
I'll stand around and fight, but there's no point tonight, been chained to this machine
Trashed and scattered again, I'm feelin' so low
You waste your breath while fuckin' with me, my blood is so cold
My destination's always unknown, I'll find my way there
but Goddamn Imposter are you out of your mind?
I walk down these roads alone and now you're seen here
My feelings that I'm having towards you are perfectly clear (I control this ride)
My devils appetite is tonight and now I'm alright
But you Goddamn Motherfuckers always wasting my time
Play your game and walk away, your integrity don't mean shit
Crawl on me you fucking parasite, and I'm gonna take you out
I won't be the victim, but the first to cast a stone
Sedated nights to the bar room fights as metropolis takes its toll
And don't you try to stop me, it's a place you'll never know
Don't try to judge or take shots at me, I'll never let you seize control
Don't try and get the best of me
(No one can help but your own self)
City makes my body ache
(Lonely, don't try and prey on me)
I feel your world keep dying, (Don't try and get the best of me)
(No one can help but your own self)
No more use in tryin' (City makes my body ache)
(Lonely, don't try and prey on me)
And my body's trashed and low, but to you I'll never show myself or what's inside
And I've seen it all before but I'll settle the score, I'll never join your side
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tq4CGInWpjc
listen the song!!
:D
but i think the lyrics are too heavy, too hard for me..
for an ordinary indonesian girl.
hahaha..
ohh..this post, proves me that i cant keep my fingers from going online.
oh gosh
---trashed and scattered---
Keep on writing you're just raping yourself
(nothing can take my mind away from them)
Don't you ask about me, ask 'bout somebody else
(Once I've fallen there's many stories to tell)
I can feel it, won't embrace it, it's overwhelming how far you take it
(Stuck in a state of questioning)
And don't you tell me you know we're destined, you won't convince me, I won't listen
(Resentment building, you've put our lives on hold)
Trashed and scattered again, I'm feelin' so low
You waste your breath while fuckin' with me, my blood is so cold
My destination always unknown, I'll find my way there
But you Goddamn Motherfuckers always wasting my time
I won't be the victim, but the first to cast a stone
Sedated nights to the bar room fights as metropolis takes its toll
And don't you try to stop me, it's a place you'll never know
Don't try to judge or take shots at me, I'll never let you seize control
Play your game and walk away, your integrity don't mean shit
Crawl on me you fucking parasite, and I'm gonna take you out
Label me, that's fine, I'll be somebody else
(Nothing in front of me but holes ahead)
Lie about my life, have a story to tell
(Lights went down, was on the edge and I fell)
Oh you're so insightful, let me remind you to twist and break me, should make you worried
(Long way to go and you're right there)
Two-faced liar, don't try and know me, deceit brings fire, makes sure you can't breathe
(Pick at pieces of my body below)
I never bothered with all the rumors, too much garbage
(All the same)
I'll stand right here, come on you falsehood deceitful liar
(I know my destination - there's no shame)
Don't ever take my side, I know you're never right, I'll justify the means
(Nothing's what it seems)
I'll stand around and fight, but there's no point tonight, been chained to this machine
Trashed and scattered again, I'm feelin' so low
You waste your breath while fuckin' with me, my blood is so cold
My destination's always unknown, I'll find my way there
but Goddamn Imposter are you out of your mind?
I walk down these roads alone and now you're seen here
My feelings that I'm having towards you are perfectly clear (I control this ride)
My devils appetite is tonight and now I'm alright
But you Goddamn Motherfuckers always wasting my time
Play your game and walk away, your integrity don't mean shit
Crawl on me you fucking parasite, and I'm gonna take you out
I won't be the victim, but the first to cast a stone
Sedated nights to the bar room fights as metropolis takes its toll
And don't you try to stop me, it's a place you'll never know
Don't try to judge or take shots at me, I'll never let you seize control
Don't try and get the best of me
(No one can help but your own self)
City makes my body ache
(Lonely, don't try and prey on me)
I feel your world keep dying, (Don't try and get the best of me)
(No one can help but your own self)
No more use in tryin' (City makes my body ache)
(Lonely, don't try and prey on me)
And my body's trashed and low, but to you I'll never show myself or what's inside
And I've seen it all before but I'll settle the score, I'll never join your side
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tq4CGInWpjc
listen the song!!
:D
can i still offline till march 22 ?
i have to prepare my final examination.
:)
haha
i like the piano playing
thanks
richard clayderman - Ballade Pour Adeline
hahahaha
is it happy ending? :)
today.
february 28.
I finished my 1st test, i meant..univ test.
Haha.
Thanks God.
Started at 10am..and finished at 1pm.
100 questions.
Science, math, english.
Dont ask me, 'could u do the test well?'
I dont know the answer of that question.
So,i'd answer 'i wasnt confused when answering the test'
Haha.
:P
thanks for the 'lucky'
The best luck for me.
And..thanks for mama.
I woke up at 2am lastnite..i studied math after had sholat. I thought..study at thats time isnt bad.
:)
cheers up all!
:D
february 28.
I finished my 1st test, i meant..univ test.
Haha.
Thanks God.
Started at 10am..and finished at 1pm.
100 questions.
Science, math, english.
Dont ask me, 'could u do the test well?'
I dont know the answer of that question.
So,i'd answer 'i wasnt confused when answering the test'
Haha.
:P
thanks for the 'lucky'
The best luck for me.
And..thanks for mama.
I woke up at 2am lastnite..i studied math after had sholat. I thought..study at thats time isnt bad.
:)
cheers up all!
:D
Whats up, anne?
szia.
Good morning.
I decided using this blog as my online diary. Eventho, i never published this blog to others. Haha. I thought it will be useful someday.
Whats new?
Whats new?
Nothin.
Im on holiday now (and yesterday)
Yippi!
But well..i must study hard today c0z tmrw i'll have univ test.. (wish me luck)
Tuesday. I got shocked. I heard that i'll have even semester final test exam..from 1st march till 5.
And i felt down.
Thought 'i need pleasure time! Hang out with friend'
Finaly, i went to MOG ..mall olympic garden..yesterday with Lukman. Thanks Boy!!
I had damn crazy time. Haha.. Playing arcade games in amazone, ate crepes, and walking around furniture shop (what for? Lol)
Haha.
My brain had been fresh up.
Now.preparing for test..im ready to studyhard today.
cyas
:)
Good morning.
I decided using this blog as my online diary. Eventho, i never published this blog to others. Haha. I thought it will be useful someday.
Whats new?
Whats new?
Nothin.
Im on holiday now (and yesterday)
Yippi!
But well..i must study hard today c0z tmrw i'll have univ test.. (wish me luck)
Tuesday. I got shocked. I heard that i'll have even semester final test exam..from 1st march till 5.
And i felt down.
Thought 'i need pleasure time! Hang out with friend'
Finaly, i went to MOG ..mall olympic garden..yesterday with Lukman. Thanks Boy!!
I had damn crazy time. Haha.. Playing arcade games in amazone, ate crepes, and walking around furniture shop (what for? Lol)
Haha.
My brain had been fresh up.
Now.preparing for test..im ready to studyhard today.
cyas
:)
facebook notes
i read again..my notes in facebook
-___-
i got this note..
i wrote it 07 September 2009 --> 22:04
the deepest
God
Ya llah wht can i do?
akucapek huhu bingung, ak kudu lapo..
okeh.dg mata mbendol n hidung merah ak kudu lapo?
yaAllah kenapa ak harus menangis setelah sekian lama gag nangis..
akupingin keluar dari negara ini.
biarin walopun di sana ak cuma bisa merangkak..
ak pengen memulai semuanya dari bawah,
dari tanganku sendiri ak gag mau ngerepotin siapapun,
siapapun yang merasa direpotin jika suatu saat di sana akusudah bisa berlari,
ak pengen kembali kemereka lalu membuat mereka tersenyum
ak gatau bagaimana yang namanya benar di mata mereka?
karena ak tidak pernah merasa benar di mata mereka
hargai aku
terima aku
pahami aku
hanya perlu pahami
pahami
karena merekaselalu memandang aku dari sudut pandang mereka ak jadi salah
apa definisi benar di mata mereka?
aku coba pahami lalu tersenyum aku coba pahami
lalu tersenyum
aku coba lagi
tapi kali ini menangis menangis salah?
apa yg harus aku lakukan supaya jadi benar?
aku sudah bilang aku tidak suka dg hal itu tp mereka tetap melakukannya
kenapa mereka tidak coba balik memahamiku?
aku bermaksud baik
tidak pernah sekalipun aku berpikiran untuk melakukan hal buruk seperti itu
ya Allah
lalu ketika aku dengan tulus dan sekuat tenaga membantu dia
kenapa dia malah berpikiran buruk ke aku..
yaAllah sungguh aku tidak tahu harus berekspresi apa..
berkata apa..
tapi syangnya saat itu aku tidak bisa tersenyum
mereka mereka benar-benar membuatku merasa aku sangat merepotkan di sini
aku selalu berusaha jadi anak baik yang gag mengecewakan mereka
berusaha
tapi mereka tidak berusaha menghargaiku
maaf kalo ak terlalu merepotkan
maaf kalo aku tidak bisa menjadi yang terbaik
maaf kalo aku tidak seperti dia
maaf kalo aku hanya bisa sampai seperti ini
maaf kalo aku sekarang merasa mereka telah menghentikan lariku sebelum aku sempat sampai di finish
maaf kalo aku sekarang merasa mereka tidak membiarkanku menjadi diriku sendiri
maaf karena hal pertama yang aku lakukan saat ini adalah menangis,,
huhu nangis yang gag berhenti2
smp ak pusing
mereka membuatku merasa tidak nyaman
membuatku merasa ak tidak bisa diharapkan
hentikan itu!! dan tolong hargai aku.
hargai setiap usahaku setiap semangatku untuk menuntut ilmu
setiap pilihan yang aku pilih
setiap perbuatan yang aku lakukan
setiap senyum yang aku kembangkan
setiap perhatian yang aku curahkan setiap doa yang aku ucapkan
setiap tangis yang saat ini keluar ..
hargai dengan memahamiku
mungkin mereka tidak tahu mimpi2ku
pernah suatu saat aku sadar, diantara sekian banyak mimpiku, tidak ada satupun mimpi yang ak tujukan buat diriku
semua mimpiku untuk mereka
untuk membuat mereka bahagia
untuk membuat mereka bangga
untuk membawa mereka keliling dunia
untuk membuktikan pada mereka bahwa dunia pasti bisa dilihat dari sisi yang berbeda,
termasuk aku.
lihat aku dari sisi yang berbeda
beginilah caraku membuat mereka bangga
coba terima dan pahami
tidak ada dalam pikiranku sekalipun untuk membuat mereka kecewa
aku ingin suatu saat nanti mereka akan tersenyum ke orang-orang lalu berkata 'dia anakku', dengan bangga .
hanya itu.
terimalah aku apa adanya
pahami aku
cobalah mengerti bahwa aku di sini, berlari untuk mengejar mimpiku yang semua hanya aku buat untuk untuk mereka mereka, yang telah membesarkan aku
yang mungkin bagi mereka 'aku yang tidak bisa diharapkan dan hanya merepotkan'
terimakasih sudah membuatku menangis
setelah sekian lama aku tidak pernah menangis seemosional ini
sampai tulisan ini selesai pun aku masih tetap menangis
::thedeepest:: mydeepestheart
-___-
i got this note..
i wrote it 07 September 2009 --> 22:04
the deepest
God
Ya llah wht can i do?
akucapek huhu bingung, ak kudu lapo..
okeh.dg mata mbendol n hidung merah ak kudu lapo?
yaAllah kenapa ak harus menangis setelah sekian lama gag nangis..
akupingin keluar dari negara ini.
biarin walopun di sana ak cuma bisa merangkak..
ak pengen memulai semuanya dari bawah,
dari tanganku sendiri ak gag mau ngerepotin siapapun,
siapapun yang merasa direpotin jika suatu saat di sana akusudah bisa berlari,
ak pengen kembali kemereka lalu membuat mereka tersenyum
ak gatau bagaimana yang namanya benar di mata mereka?
karena ak tidak pernah merasa benar di mata mereka
hargai aku
terima aku
pahami aku
hanya perlu pahami
pahami
karena merekaselalu memandang aku dari sudut pandang mereka ak jadi salah
apa definisi benar di mata mereka?
aku coba pahami lalu tersenyum aku coba pahami
lalu tersenyum
aku coba lagi
tapi kali ini menangis menangis salah?
apa yg harus aku lakukan supaya jadi benar?
aku sudah bilang aku tidak suka dg hal itu tp mereka tetap melakukannya
kenapa mereka tidak coba balik memahamiku?
aku bermaksud baik
tidak pernah sekalipun aku berpikiran untuk melakukan hal buruk seperti itu
ya Allah
lalu ketika aku dengan tulus dan sekuat tenaga membantu dia
kenapa dia malah berpikiran buruk ke aku..
yaAllah sungguh aku tidak tahu harus berekspresi apa..
berkata apa..
tapi syangnya saat itu aku tidak bisa tersenyum
mereka mereka benar-benar membuatku merasa aku sangat merepotkan di sini
aku selalu berusaha jadi anak baik yang gag mengecewakan mereka
berusaha
tapi mereka tidak berusaha menghargaiku
maaf kalo ak terlalu merepotkan
maaf kalo aku tidak bisa menjadi yang terbaik
maaf kalo aku tidak seperti dia
maaf kalo aku hanya bisa sampai seperti ini
maaf kalo aku sekarang merasa mereka telah menghentikan lariku sebelum aku sempat sampai di finish
maaf kalo aku sekarang merasa mereka tidak membiarkanku menjadi diriku sendiri
maaf karena hal pertama yang aku lakukan saat ini adalah menangis,,
huhu nangis yang gag berhenti2
smp ak pusing
mereka membuatku merasa tidak nyaman
membuatku merasa ak tidak bisa diharapkan
hentikan itu!! dan tolong hargai aku.
hargai setiap usahaku setiap semangatku untuk menuntut ilmu
setiap pilihan yang aku pilih
setiap perbuatan yang aku lakukan
setiap senyum yang aku kembangkan
setiap perhatian yang aku curahkan setiap doa yang aku ucapkan
setiap tangis yang saat ini keluar ..
hargai dengan memahamiku
mungkin mereka tidak tahu mimpi2ku
pernah suatu saat aku sadar, diantara sekian banyak mimpiku, tidak ada satupun mimpi yang ak tujukan buat diriku
semua mimpiku untuk mereka
untuk membuat mereka bahagia
untuk membuat mereka bangga
untuk membawa mereka keliling dunia
untuk membuktikan pada mereka bahwa dunia pasti bisa dilihat dari sisi yang berbeda,
termasuk aku.
lihat aku dari sisi yang berbeda
beginilah caraku membuat mereka bangga
coba terima dan pahami
tidak ada dalam pikiranku sekalipun untuk membuat mereka kecewa
aku ingin suatu saat nanti mereka akan tersenyum ke orang-orang lalu berkata 'dia anakku', dengan bangga .
hanya itu.
terimalah aku apa adanya
pahami aku
cobalah mengerti bahwa aku di sini, berlari untuk mengejar mimpiku yang semua hanya aku buat untuk untuk mereka mereka, yang telah membesarkan aku
yang mungkin bagi mereka 'aku yang tidak bisa diharapkan dan hanya merepotkan'
terimakasih sudah membuatku menangis
setelah sekian lama aku tidak pernah menangis seemosional ini
sampai tulisan ini selesai pun aku masih tetap menangis
::thedeepest:: mydeepestheart
-__- big girls dont cry?
I remember
Yesterday, i felt very down
Tired..very tired
I was on my motorcycle..going home. After extraclass. Grey yellowish sky..so cloudy, like my mind at thats time.
Then..the rain fell..as i was crying
“God..my Lord.. im very tired today. Ive tried to be strong girl..but eventually now im falling down”
Im used to cry when rain..when rain fall down from the heavens. Rain water can hide my tears.
“God..have u ever heard that Tears are sweat from heart? Umm..now i do understand those words. My heart is tired.. It has run already, tried to reach all of i wanted..all of my dreams. Today i realized..about my dreams..can i get all? God..i believe You know the answer of my question..no matter wheter the answer is good or not..i dont care and i dont want to know. Just let it be and i will know the answer someday. But please, now i just need the strength. Give me strength to run again through this long way.. Give me spirit to raise up my heart”
I cried..who cares with my tears. Im alone on my motocycle. And i didnt care with people who looking at me.
“God i believe..You know what my dreams are. You are the One..the right place where i can tell all about my dreams..and u will not laugh at my dreams. God, You are the One who knows the best for me..the right place where i can tell all about my sadness, happiness, all of things that make me upset. God..i believe You have grabbed my dreams and hear grievances of mine. Love You, my Lord.”
Well..i told to my brother about scholarship overseas. And.. u know? He laughed. Very big HAHAHAHAHAHA. Whatever..i will prove to him that i can!
Tired
As he said..im a strong girl.. as my friends said ‘Anne, u are really powerful’
People see me as strong girl. Am i really strong? Hahaha..
But who knows..i have limit of strength. Definitely.
Maybe i could make my classmates laugh and out from their damn sadness, but im not sure i can raise my heart and draw a smile on my face.
CHEERS UP ANNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh gosh. I really need pleasuring time now!
Yesterday, i felt very down
Tired..very tired
I was on my motorcycle..going home. After extraclass. Grey yellowish sky..so cloudy, like my mind at thats time.
Then..the rain fell..as i was crying
“God..my Lord.. im very tired today. Ive tried to be strong girl..but eventually now im falling down”
Im used to cry when rain..when rain fall down from the heavens. Rain water can hide my tears.
“God..have u ever heard that Tears are sweat from heart? Umm..now i do understand those words. My heart is tired.. It has run already, tried to reach all of i wanted..all of my dreams. Today i realized..about my dreams..can i get all? God..i believe You know the answer of my question..no matter wheter the answer is good or not..i dont care and i dont want to know. Just let it be and i will know the answer someday. But please, now i just need the strength. Give me strength to run again through this long way.. Give me spirit to raise up my heart”
I cried..who cares with my tears. Im alone on my motocycle. And i didnt care with people who looking at me.
“God i believe..You know what my dreams are. You are the One..the right place where i can tell all about my dreams..and u will not laugh at my dreams. God, You are the One who knows the best for me..the right place where i can tell all about my sadness, happiness, all of things that make me upset. God..i believe You have grabbed my dreams and hear grievances of mine. Love You, my Lord.”
Well..i told to my brother about scholarship overseas. And.. u know? He laughed. Very big HAHAHAHAHAHA. Whatever..i will prove to him that i can!
Tired
As he said..im a strong girl.. as my friends said ‘Anne, u are really powerful’
People see me as strong girl. Am i really strong? Hahaha..
But who knows..i have limit of strength. Definitely.
Maybe i could make my classmates laugh and out from their damn sadness, but im not sure i can raise my heart and draw a smile on my face.
CHEERS UP ANNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh gosh. I really need pleasuring time now!
-________-!
(My lovely room, February 21 2010. 19:33 à à 7 days left before university test and 29 days left before final exam)
memories in 2009
REVIEW
MY LIFE at 2009
Tahun 2009
Tahun yang banyak banget ngasih aku kenangan, harapan, semangat
Berisi banyak perjuangan, tangisan..
Tahun kemaren banyak banget ngasih aku pelajaran khusunya tentang bagaimana memahami diriku sendiri dan hidupku.
Well..my eyes opened and said ‘this is my life’
Tahun kemarin aku berusia 17 tahun.
Banyak banget kejutan..kejutan..kejutan..
Survive
Intinya setahun kemarin aku kudu bisa bertahan.
Aku merasakan gimana rasanya menjadi orang yang ditutup matanya,,sementara orang lain membuka matanya lebar-lebar tepat dibelakangku
Tahun kemarin bener-bener diajari buat menerima kenyataan ‘Anne..u have to realize. Those are the real!’
Buat menjadi orang yang lebih bisa berlapang dada.
Tersenyum..tapi gak tersenyum karena dipaksa..aku bisa tersenyum ikhlas tahun kemarin.
Aku menemukan banyak pengalaman.
Tentang teman..teman..bagaimana bisa menjadi teman..
Tahun kemarin aku dituntut untuk berjalan dengan satu kaki..dengan muka yang gak sempurna..dan aku bisa bertahan sampai sekarang. Whateva they said..
Berusaha menerima kenyataan kecut yang membuat aku tersenyum kecut.
Tahun kemarin aku rasa lebih baik daripada tahun 2008. memang harus seperti itu.
Intinya tahun kemarin adalah tahun perjuangan.
Tahun yang diawali dengan kepahitan..tapi akhir tahun..aku bahagia.
THANKS GOD
Hope..2010 will be better than before
POSITIF SEMANGAT DAN GEMBIRA !! ^^
MY LIFE at 2009
Tahun 2009
Tahun yang banyak banget ngasih aku kenangan, harapan, semangat
Berisi banyak perjuangan, tangisan..
Tahun kemaren banyak banget ngasih aku pelajaran khusunya tentang bagaimana memahami diriku sendiri dan hidupku.
Well..my eyes opened and said ‘this is my life’
Tahun kemarin aku berusia 17 tahun.
Banyak banget kejutan..kejutan..kejutan..
Survive
Intinya setahun kemarin aku kudu bisa bertahan.
Aku merasakan gimana rasanya menjadi orang yang ditutup matanya,,sementara orang lain membuka matanya lebar-lebar tepat dibelakangku
Tahun kemarin bener-bener diajari buat menerima kenyataan ‘Anne..u have to realize. Those are the real!’
Buat menjadi orang yang lebih bisa berlapang dada.
Tersenyum..tapi gak tersenyum karena dipaksa..aku bisa tersenyum ikhlas tahun kemarin.
Aku menemukan banyak pengalaman.
Tentang teman..teman..bagaimana bisa menjadi teman..
Tahun kemarin aku dituntut untuk berjalan dengan satu kaki..dengan muka yang gak sempurna..dan aku bisa bertahan sampai sekarang. Whateva they said..
Berusaha menerima kenyataan kecut yang membuat aku tersenyum kecut.
Tahun kemarin aku rasa lebih baik daripada tahun 2008. memang harus seperti itu.
Intinya tahun kemarin adalah tahun perjuangan.
Tahun yang diawali dengan kepahitan..tapi akhir tahun..aku bahagia.
THANKS GOD
Hope..2010 will be better than before
POSITIF SEMANGAT DAN GEMBIRA !! ^^
another story from korea :)
Seperti yang aku janjikan sebelumnya..
Walaupun agak telat karena dipotong semester examination.
Akhirnya aku bisa ngepostin foto2 dari KOREA.
Walaupun agak telat karena dipotong semester examination.
Akhirnya aku bisa ngepostin foto2 dari KOREA.
::::SPECIAL THANKS TO Moonno Oppa:::: (I give u big thanks)
Thanks for sending me many photos that ive never seen the pics like those before..
Thanks for sharing many things
Thanks for the card, the snacks, MogCandy, korean course, the coin, book plates, etc
Thanks for the spirit
Thanks for the time when u can chat with me :) I was really enjoy all of the moments.
GOMAWUYO MOONNO OPPA
Foto-foto ini dapet dari oppa..
liburannya dari pulau Jeju..pinwheel dari ulsan
dsb..
:)
cool and creative. PINWHEEL from ULSAN
moonno oppa with hyung no
yang hobi nonton channelnya korea..pasti tau KBS . oia ini miniature
miniatur-miniatur keren bgt
the family.. look at the amazing garden :D
mama n papanya,,
grass labyrinth
trickart museum.. great!
still at trick art museum
masih banyak foto lain
tapi yang aku post itu aja.
hehe
HAVE A NICE DAY :)
Post pertama 2010
Wahaha
Ni aku otw ke rumah yang ti ku..bulekny bpakq..ahhaha. Mw ad acara makan makan.
Hurrai.
Kebetulan nii..ak barusan aja mengalami yang namanya long lasting study time, hectic day -_- huaua.brusan aja ak pulang les..
Okeoke
Sekarang uda tanggal 2 januari 2010
..belum telat kan buat ngucapin
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010
:D
banyak banget yang pengen ak post.in.. Tp bhubung ni aku ngepost lewat hape,jadi y ntar2 aj deh kl ak online pc.
Hihing..
Ak pengen ngepostin
Umm
Tentu aj d0ng kabar lanjutan dari penpal ak d korea. Btw ak uda dpet kirimannya.
Terus ngepost pinwheel festival dr ulsan, korea.
Terus terus.. Ada lagi kok tp ak lupa,
Hoho
Oh.
Oia. Ak ucapin duka cita yg sedalamdalamny..buat salah satu personel avenged sevenfold yang meninggal 28des2009 lalu
.huwang.
THE REV a.k.a JAMES OWEN SULIVAN
.huwang.
The best drummer that ive known, ive seen,ive heard.
The most talented band personel, bisa ngedrum triple pedal sambil nye..krim (scream,red) , backing vocal terkeren, drummer terhebat..gada tandingannya
.aku akan merindukanmu.
Sumpah.ak langsung nangis denger berita itu.
Rest in peace.
Moga the rev tenang di alam sana.
umm.
That's all folks.
Ni aku otw ke rumah yang ti ku..bulekny bpakq..ahhaha. Mw ad acara makan makan.
Hurrai.
Kebetulan nii..ak barusan aja mengalami yang namanya long lasting study time, hectic day -_- huaua.brusan aja ak pulang les..
Okeoke
Sekarang uda tanggal 2 januari 2010
..belum telat kan buat ngucapin
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010
:D
banyak banget yang pengen ak post.in.. Tp bhubung ni aku ngepost lewat hape,jadi y ntar2 aj deh kl ak online pc.
Hihing..
Ak pengen ngepostin
Umm
Tentu aj d0ng kabar lanjutan dari penpal ak d korea. Btw ak uda dpet kirimannya.
Terus ngepost pinwheel festival dr ulsan, korea.
Terus terus.. Ada lagi kok tp ak lupa,
Hoho
Oh.
Oia. Ak ucapin duka cita yg sedalamdalamny..buat salah satu personel avenged sevenfold yang meninggal 28des2009 lalu
.huwang.
THE REV a.k.a JAMES OWEN SULIVAN
.huwang.
The best drummer that ive known, ive seen,ive heard.
The most talented band personel, bisa ngedrum triple pedal sambil nye..krim (scream,red) , backing vocal terkeren, drummer terhebat..gada tandingannya
.aku akan merindukanmu.
Sumpah.ak langsung nangis denger berita itu.
Rest in peace.
Moga the rev tenang di alam sana.
umm.
That's all folks.