why did u make me fly so high? High till i cudnt see where i live. High till i cudnt imagine hows the pain is if i fall down. How many 'i understand' you needed to make u believe that i really understood. How many reasons u needed to explain to me,as if im such a stupid girl that wont understand what u speakin. How many times sud i say 'im so glad to meet u' to make u understand that u are special. I always said -i understand, i know, i see- but, did u really trust me that i did understand? How about saying 'i understand' with my tears fallin down?
Fly so high after long time. U cud do that well for me. Lol. How fool iam. Ya. I cudnt fly, but u gave me wings..when i was flying, too high, u took that wings. And again i said 'i understand' ..
Now fallin down, free fall. Wat the pain. I gave u the best ending ever, i made it the happy ending for u, i didnt care wit wat i felt..i just wanna make u smile, coz that happy ending, in our last story.
And now when i hvent seen ur smile yet, again i say.. 'i understand' .if nw u r in front of me, im gonna kill u. Rawr. Lol. Nono. I will show my best smile, say 'i understand', and walk away from u. As u said to me,that im a strong girl. I'll be strong girl.
.just frm the past story.
.lets make a new start.
.n i don care.
-__-
AND..THIS ONE
orry if i let this feeling fall toO deep
its out of my expectation that it gonna be so far
its too late to realize that we are totally different
at first..i thought i could manage my mind..i could give fences around that
but who knows..eventually -- i cant.
how fool i am. yes.
wth with this feeling
at first i said 'let it flow'
and ive given to much 'let' i think..
ironic
how fool i am.
let me know what happen with u..
just temme and i'll understand
im sure i'll understand
i promise
now
who cares with my tears
who cares with my sadness
who cares with my insanity
i just wanna say that i was really enjoy all of the moments with u.
thanks alot for being my friend
anyway..
i sang unholy confession -a7x-
whole the day
i was about crazy of that song nowdays
:P
especially the refrain part
"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all.
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart.
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me"
i wanna be "The one"
:)
promises
its not hard to pay all promises. No doubt in it..
I really know how does some one feel about looking forward a promise. Once i was child, my old cousin said 'i will give u a school bag. Which one u want, pink or red?' i did remembered what she said till now, tho i havent wanted that bag already,, but i think thts my first time someone said promise to me, in fact i didnt get that bag. Its not about i got my bag or not, its about trust. I place trust in someone and i wish too much in her or him,,then i get nothing.
I always try to pay my promises, to keep another trust on me..
Now, still waiting for a promise to be realized by someone. Are you trustable, dude? -sigh-
:)
cheers
I really know how does some one feel about looking forward a promise. Once i was child, my old cousin said 'i will give u a school bag. Which one u want, pink or red?' i did remembered what she said till now, tho i havent wanted that bag already,, but i think thts my first time someone said promise to me, in fact i didnt get that bag. Its not about i got my bag or not, its about trust. I place trust in someone and i wish too much in her or him,,then i get nothing.
I always try to pay my promises, to keep another trust on me..
Now, still waiting for a promise to be realized by someone. Are you trustable, dude? -sigh-
:)
cheers
its me
i wish i could be the one, the one who won't care at all..but being the one on the stand, i know the way to go, no one's guiding me..
When time soaked with blood turns it back, I KNOW IT'S HARD TO FALL, confided in me was your heart..i know its hurting you,but its killin me..
-unholy confession-
I love that song.
btw..i'll have test, 2 days later. Not so important test, coz i dont expect too much in it. I take the test to get Japan scholarship. Its sooo difficult. Oyea. Thats why i study hardly for it. Never study. Hahha. I just wish the best luck for me.
I believe with the power of dream. But i dont want to have a dream. Coz my life so far, if i dream something , i'll not get it. Hahha. So i'd like to say let it flow. Maybe im stupid coz dont have any destiny. Lol. But its me.
Huaa
i talked too much here. damn .
:)
When time soaked with blood turns it back, I KNOW IT'S HARD TO FALL, confided in me was your heart..i know its hurting you,but its killin me..
-unholy confession-
I love that song.
btw..i'll have test, 2 days later. Not so important test, coz i dont expect too much in it. I take the test to get Japan scholarship. Its sooo difficult. Oyea. Thats why i study hardly for it. Never study. Hahha. I just wish the best luck for me.
I believe with the power of dream. But i dont want to have a dream. Coz my life so far, if i dream something , i'll not get it. Hahha. So i'd like to say let it flow. Maybe im stupid coz dont have any destiny. Lol. But its me.
Huaa
i talked too much here. damn .
:)
and still im so young, yeah
My life review so far..im still young girl.
Haha
Today i met my bestfriend, and we told our each story. Then i cried. Haha..
So far..i love my life, suprise life. I never expected will met many amazing ppl. This life is too amazing..too suprising. So why i waste my time just to remember bad stories?
Seize the day.
lets make a new start
well.today my bestfriend mad at me, why? Coz i just said 'thats okay, i understand, i know, i see' ,and i didnt tell what i was feeling, yeaa to someone over there. I prefer said thats okay,,coz i think its useless..no use..i dont want add new chapter of story in this past book. Its ended already..the end. Please dont make me fly again.
Sometimes i thought bout how close the similarity between stupid and understanding. Have u ever thought that? Lol !! How stupid i am. Sigh.
thats okay. Im not angry , mad, or yeaa such another useless expression. I just wanna say thank you coz u ever made me fly, went along with me to fairlyland, made my imagination grew so fast,,so fast till i believed i was livin in fairy land..where prince would married with ugly poor girl, where prince could marry with his servant. Lol!
Haha
Today i met my bestfriend, and we told our each story. Then i cried. Haha..
So far..i love my life, suprise life. I never expected will met many amazing ppl. This life is too amazing..too suprising. So why i waste my time just to remember bad stories?
Seize the day.
lets make a new start
well.today my bestfriend mad at me, why? Coz i just said 'thats okay, i understand, i know, i see' ,and i didnt tell what i was feeling, yeaa to someone over there. I prefer said thats okay,,coz i think its useless..no use..i dont want add new chapter of story in this past book. Its ended already..the end. Please dont make me fly again.
Sometimes i thought bout how close the similarity between stupid and understanding. Have u ever thought that? Lol !! How stupid i am. Sigh.
thats okay. Im not angry , mad, or yeaa such another useless expression. I just wanna say thank you coz u ever made me fly, went along with me to fairlyland, made my imagination grew so fast,,so fast till i believed i was livin in fairy land..where prince would married with ugly poor girl, where prince could marry with his servant. Lol!
so lets make a new start
when i watched drama.. -i think i shouldnt write what that drama is- yea, i saw actress, beautiful girl. And you know whats on my mind 'does girl like that?' LOL ! now im laughing at myself. Does he like girl like that, beautiful one?and i saw awesome lifestyle, definitely different life with mine. Why there's so many differences between me and him?! All differences face me up, its the fact, and the fact is 'we have differences, too much !'
Is it love? NO. its self ambition. And dammit i dont know how to kill this damn ambition. How does love feel? How does he feel? And i said again, it's..i mean this feeling has been out of my expectation. I should have known what the risk to place him in the certain part of my heart,, well this was just my 1st experience,,so i didnt mind it will have bad ending. I dont care.
When i imagined about him, thought about him, and chased his shadow,,on the middle of the way to, i realized i was chasing nothing.
Just let this feeling die.
Yesterday something hit my face. About the fact that u had realized this feeling. I knew, u will know that from everyword i wrote, everycare i gave..in that gift.. -sigh- well. Now i dont care. Its already ended. Just my past story. Thanks to take a part in my life.
Sometimes i feel amazing with what i can do to raise my heart, amazing to have power to think all positively. My friends ever asked me 'do u have any problms in ur life?' LOL. hey guys..i also have prblms..but yeaa i just try to be friend with prblms.
:)
Just remember avenged sevenfold's song lyric -so lets make a new start-
hihi.
Have a nice day ahead
Is it love? NO. its self ambition. And dammit i dont know how to kill this damn ambition. How does love feel? How does he feel? And i said again, it's..i mean this feeling has been out of my expectation. I should have known what the risk to place him in the certain part of my heart,, well this was just my 1st experience,,so i didnt mind it will have bad ending. I dont care.
When i imagined about him, thought about him, and chased his shadow,,on the middle of the way to, i realized i was chasing nothing.
Just let this feeling die.
Yesterday something hit my face. About the fact that u had realized this feeling. I knew, u will know that from everyword i wrote, everycare i gave..in that gift.. -sigh- well. Now i dont care. Its already ended. Just my past story. Thanks to take a part in my life.
Sometimes i feel amazing with what i can do to raise my heart, amazing to have power to think all positively. My friends ever asked me 'do u have any problms in ur life?' LOL. hey guys..i also have prblms..but yeaa i just try to be friend with prblms.
:)
Just remember avenged sevenfold's song lyric -so lets make a new start-
hihi.
Have a nice day ahead