facebook note, posted here before i deleted this note

why did u make me fly so high? High till i cudnt see where i live. High till i cudnt imagine hows the pain is if i fall down. How many 'i understand' you needed to make u believe that i really understood. How many reasons u needed to explain to me,as if im such a stupid girl that wont understand what u speakin. How many times sud i say 'im so glad to meet u' to make u understand that u are special. I always said -i understand, i know, i see- but, did u really trust me that i did understand? How about saying 'i understand' with my tears fallin down?

Fly so high after long time. U cud do that well for me. Lol. How fool iam. Ya. I cudnt fly, but u gave me wings..when i was flying, too high, u took that wings. And again i said 'i understand' ..
Now fallin down, free fall. Wat the pain. I gave u the best ending ever, i made it the happy ending for u, i didnt care wit wat i felt..i just wanna make u smile, coz that happy ending, in our last story.
And now when i hvent seen ur smile yet, again i say.. 'i understand' .if nw u r in front of me, im gonna kill u. Rawr. Lol. Nono. I will show my best smile, say 'i understand', and walk away from u. As u said to me,that im a strong girl. I'll be strong girl.


.just frm the past story.
.lets make a new start.
.n i don care.




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AND..THIS ONE

orry if i let this feeling fall toO deep
its out of my expectation that it gonna be so far
its too late to realize that we are totally different
at first..i thought i could manage my mind..i could give fences around that
but who knows..eventually -- i cant.
how fool i am. yes.
wth with this feeling
at first i said 'let it flow'
and ive given to much 'let' i think..
ironic

how fool i am.

let me know what happen with u..
just temme and i'll understand
im sure i'll understand
i promise

now
who cares with my tears
who cares with my sadness
who cares with my insanity

i just wanna say that i was really enjoy all of the moments with u.
thanks alot for being my friend

anyway..
i sang unholy confession -a7x-
whole the day
i was about crazy of that song nowdays
:P
especially the refrain part

"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all.
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart.
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me"


i wanna be "The one"
:)