so lets make a new start

when i watched drama.. -i think i shouldnt write what that drama is- yea, i saw actress, beautiful girl. And you know whats on my mind 'does girl like that?' LOL ! now im laughing at myself. Does he like girl like that, beautiful one?and i saw awesome lifestyle, definitely different life with mine. Why there's so many differences between me and him?! All differences face me up, its the fact, and the fact is 'we have differences, too much !'
Is it love? NO. its self ambition. And dammit i dont know how to kill this damn ambition. How does love feel? How does he feel? And i said again, it's..i mean this feeling has been out of my expectation. I should have known what the risk to place him in the certain part of my heart,, well this was just my 1st experience,,so i didnt mind it will have bad ending. I dont care.

When i imagined about him, thought about him, and chased his shadow,,on the middle of the way to, i realized i was chasing nothing.
Just let this feeling die.

Yesterday something hit my face. About the fact that u had realized this feeling. I knew, u will know that from everyword i wrote, everycare i gave..in that gift.. -sigh- well. Now i dont care. Its already ended. Just my past story. Thanks to take a part in my life.
Sometimes i feel amazing with what i can do to raise my heart, amazing to have power to think all positively. My friends ever asked me 'do u have any problms in ur life?' LOL. hey guys..i also have prblms..but yeaa i just try to be friend with prblms.

:)
Just remember avenged sevenfold's song lyric -so lets make a new start-
hihi.
Have a nice day ahead