good angler

yesterday at school..my friend asked me about something strange that i didnt want to write here (lol)
it's about my feeling
she's kinda like good angler that made me tell to her about my feeling.
eventually i write lil conversation with her, here.. just lil part

:)
friend: do u love him?
me: no. no for now.
friend: hahaha. so u loved him before now.. lol
me: maybe (smile)
friend: why dont u love him now? hate him?
me: i never hate him. hahha
friend: tell me more, anne
me: well..i just didnt wanna waste my time. i felt my feeling was useless. so, why i still keep my feeling. im killing my feeling now. and..consider of me, my feeling to him was not umm..such of crush or love, maybe just -something different-, yeah i felt something different, no more..
friend: how if he said love to you?
me: (smile) that's my pleasure
and then..we laughed together.

friend: i beg sure for how long u can forget him.. haha
me: lol. i didnt have any plan to forget him. i'll neve forget him. i just wanna kill my feeling. lol.

-my feeling to him isn't right-